Make Yourself

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you.

Left Me For Dead

You didn't stop to look 'round.
You were gone before I hit the ground.
You went on your way, no prayer was said.
You left me for dead.

You didn't cover my face.
I didn't merit a communal grave.
You set me aside, no tears were shed.
You left me for dead.

I won't stop, no, 'til hell is your home.
There's nowhere to hide, nowhere to go.
You'll feel the cold of my gun at your head.
You left me for dead.

And it's not like you stayed by my side or you called me a priest.
You searched through my mouth to check for gold teeth.
You were pawning my shoes as I bled.
You left me for dead.

You kept on taking your time.
Until it was certain I couldn't survive.
Judas remained, you turned and fled.
You left me for dead.

It didn't trouble your mind.
It did not disturb you to see me decline.
You turned out my lights, you put me to bed.
You left me for dead.

And I won't rest my head 'til hell is your home.
You think that you're safe, but oh no.
You'll feel the cold of my gun hit your head.
You left me for dead.

You didn't stay close to me, didn't stay by my side.
I was choking in blood as delight filled your eyes.
You're going to burn for each word that was said.
You left me for dead.

I've reached a dead end and I can't go back.
Now I'm out for blood, yes I'm on the attack.
But if I'm going down then you'll come with me.

Because you didn't stop to look 'round.
You were gone before I hit the ground.
You went on your way, no prayer was said.
You left me for dead.

World Falls Away

Will it ever end? Will this cycle ever break? When will it be my turn? When do I get my share? Where are my wings?

How can I compete with you? I don't want to play the way you do. I don't want to play dirty. I want to win her by my own heart. That is the way I'm wired. I can't change for her.



What is it about him, what is it that makes you squirm? When you look at him, what do you see? What do you see that makes you long for him? What makes you touch him the way you do? Because it is ripping me to pieces to see you this way. I feel betrayed. So betrayed. Do you even realize it? Do you do it on purpose? What do you have against me? What have I done?

What can he offer you? Is there anything he can give you that I can't? No. I can give you all that he can, and so much more. I hope that you see that. I need you to realize that. You and him, you and I. You deserve more than what he is. So much more.

The Answer

I had a day to reflect on things.
I realized that it's okay to go a little crazy, as long as you keep your hands on the wheel.
I realized that life will spell itself out for you when it's good and ready to.

And I realized that you're so worth the fight.

Michael's Ride

I... I love you. I finally have come to realize that it IS love that I feel for you. I feel so bright when you are around. You affect me in a way no one else can. You are an amazing person. I just want to hold you, to squeeze you tight, feel the warmth of your heart beating beside my own. It is grand. There is nothing better than the glowing smile on your face, your vibrant eyes giving me all I need to live.

I kissed you today on the forehead, when we hugged goodnight. I don't know why I did. But it made me happier than I've ever been before, and I hope it made you feel the same.

I can't wait to see Equus.

Road Trippin'

I want you to know how euphoric it feels to have her smiling and laughing next to me.

It's the greatest feeling in the world to make someone else smile. =]

Peruvian Skies

"I swear he's gonna murder that poor kid..."

...And I love how a wonderful day can be totally fucked up by something so simple and stupid.

Have You Ever

Do you remember that day when even though you were tired, even though you had naught but a bagel to eat, even though your throat was on fire, it felt wonderful? Have you ever had a day like that?

'Cause I just did. And it was wonderful.